I’m feeling down in the dumps this week, but here are some cute pics of my kid over the last few weeks.
how do i let it get this far?
I see the signs, but the rose colored glasses are far too strong.
These boys come swooping in with a glimmer of illusion, empty promises cause confusion.
The love the real, but the disease they cannot heal.
inner demons rip from inside.
To them i’m a light, solace, and quiet in the night.
me- suffocated under years of tumult and unrequited love. baring the punishment to the expense of long lost lovers.
my heart is much too big, my soul too soft.
The prospect of fantasy and soundless words are my unwavering kryptonite
Internally, I’m wonder woman. Strength, unmatched. Passion, unwavering. Endurance, unquestioned. Buy my heart wall crumbles like an dust at the smallest whisper of lust.
Maybe it’s my calling to love those incapable of loving themselves.
Maybe it’s a reflection of my own soul telling me I don’t love myself.
Maybe I just fall too fast.
Maybe I love too easy.
Maybe I see the love they deserve, even when they will never see it in their own self.
Maybe it’s some sort of superman complex that I think I can be the one to save them.
I’m drawn to tortured souls. Ones that have been through immense pain. Conditioned to feel not good enough. Unworthy of love. Ones who’s self hate is torment to watch.
Time after time…they hide…but the truth comes out little by little, after my heart is already bound.
I want to wish the happiest of birthdays to this guy. Thirty never looked so damn fine.
Never in a million years did I think that the kid I crushed on who lived up the street from my best friend would one day be my soon to be husband. I love you like crazy, and here’s to the next 30. ❤