Three

Dear Ethan,

You my baby, are now in the full trenches of toddlerhood. How fast it’s gone by. No longer my little squishy faced baby, you are a tough and tumbling little boy.

I feel like this birthday is the dawn of a new era for us. This one, you will start to declare your independence and your full personality has finally emerged. This is the start of having a big boy and time is just going to keep rolling faster and faster.

Two has been tough….you are stubborn, though you come by it naturally. We haven’t dealt with too many tantrums, but damn if you don’t ignore me like a full grown husband. You are a story teller, a full blown conversationalist and your imagination is starting to flourish. You are a natural care taker, asking how my day is and smothering me with hugs and kisses when you know I’m feeling down. You love to play fight and cuddle and play outside.

You are dashingly handsome, with your baby blue eyes and huge smile. You love to flirt with the ladies, and Megan has been your girlfriend for most of the year. I don’t think she knows about your weekly exchange with Miss Kim at Mattinglys for free cookies, but we can keep that between us.

You are a little comedian, striking us with a one liner, a well placed cuss word, or some clownish antics. You love to be the center of attention. You are loved by A LOT of people. You steal their hearts, even after just one meeting.

Your huge personality is a lot to deal with sometimes, but I wouldn’t have it any other way.  You bring me right to the very end of my rope, before reeling me back in. I think three is going to be a bit of a bumpy ride, but we both will survive it.

 

It’s going to be a big year for us, full of change, but I think we are setting up to have a happy little life after this big transition.

 

 

I’m excited to see where this year takes us. We both are spreading our wings to fly. I wouldn’t want to be on this adventure with anyone else.

Happy Third Birthday Ethan Gabriel. I love you to pieces squishy face ❤

Love,

Mommy

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The last 3 years of my life have been full of change. Life before feels like a distant memory. Looking back on the transformation of my life is a little crazy, especially the one that’s taken place within myself. I’m stronger now, more confident, I’m not scared to go after what I want.

Last time I wrote about an answered prayer, I didn’t imagine that in this short course of time, I would be on the edge of another transformation.

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I GOT ENGAGED!!!!

 

It seems a little crazy because we haven’t been together that long, but we’ve known each other for almost two decades. We spent the first few weeks of our relationship asking why it took so long for us to finally be together. But, now we are here, together, friends, and working on building our forever.

 

The next few months are going to be a whirlwind. Between my crazy upcoming fall travels, trying to find a house, and now planning a wedding, it’s going to be hard to keep up!

 

I’m sure I’ll have some wedding planning updates, so stay tuned!

 

 

Answered Prayers

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Have you ever experienced having a prayer answered?

It’s happened to me quite a few times in the last few years.

For a long little while, I prayed for strength to endure a situation, and I felt like God was ignoring me because my life was falling apart. In hindsight…he was putting me through a struggle to give me that strength. Its not really what I thought God talking to me would look like, but sure I kept praying to him. In those last few years with my son’s father, I prayed harder than I’ve ever prayed in my life. I often felt like it was pointless because I wasn’t getting the answers I wanted to hear. I would pray for signs, and get them…but they weren’t the ones I wanted, so I kept on making the wrong decisions.

When I finally couldn’t take dealing with my situation, I prayed that I was done. That I couldn’t take it anymore and I needed God to fix the situation for me. He did. My life as I was living was ripped out from under me and everything I knew changed in an instant. My love was gone, I was moving out of my house and I went into labor with my son.

My life hasn’t looked the same since.

Being the quintessential Pisces that I am, I’ve been praying for love a lot lately. I made things work with my ex for as long as I did because we were (and still are) good friends and I loved having that sense of security of a partner. I’m a romantic and I love being in love. I have met a few duds along the way and tried to make things work that were never meant to be, but it helped me to know what I was actually looking for.  When I told God that I was ready again, he delivered.

A couple years ago, my Granny had me write out a list of what my perfect partner would look like….I found him. Actually, he has been around the whole time. We met when we were 11, but grew apart as early adulthood came our way. The core of my ideal relationship, is one that is built on friendship. I want my partner to be my best friend. Joe and I started out as friends and then add to that he is hardworking, funny, loyal, caring, attractive, passionate, and loves my kid like he is his own. I can’t ask for anymore than that. All my life I wanted a fairy-tale romance and I finally have it.

I feel like all the pieces of my life are falling back into place. The last few years have been a struggle, but I’m coming out on the other side really actually happy, content and stronger that I could have imagined.

I’ve got good friends, supportive family, new love, a healthy son, mended relationships, rebuilt self confidence, a good job, a building business of my own and true happiness. What more could a girl ask for?

And whatever you ask in prayer, you will receive, if you have faith. Matt 21:22